Sew Perfect for Every Body!

My I will get to that later attitude needs to stop. My next challenge is to get this paperwork in check at the house and get a lot cleaned up.  I am going to need to have Hubby by my side when I do that.   He still has a mentality that I will take care of it.  When things fall apart due to his not understanding what I mean or I don’t understand what he meant.  It can be a frustrating adventure at best, and a tedious one but we need to work together to get it done.   It was a habit of mine to keep a “to do list” for the day.  Planning what needs to be accomplish for that day.  A former activity that was a diligent practice but for a while I have developed the I will get to it later attitude , the results is that it never gets done. When there is a list of 20 or more things that needs to be done and I cannot count on the support of the hubby it enables the I will get to it later attitude.  Also if I get busy or engulfed in what I am doing, such as enjoying hanging out with

No matter what I do my attempt to return to what i consider normal is often met my well meaning family who feel that i need to keep those feelings to my self. As we were going up I thought the catch phrase " What happens in Vegas stays in Vegas" was created by my father. He was always telling what happens at home stays at home.  Please understand we were not abuse in any way however if the family struggles with some issues what ever they may have been.  We did not talk about it.........    Outside the home. Now as my sisters and I have our own home sometimes we do not include each other in everything that goes on in our individual homes.   My sister often says to me " I do not tell you everything that I have been through"   I completely understand!  They same goes for me there are something just to painful to think about  so why relive them by talking about them.   Each have found successful coping techniques that help us to stay sane. so I write stuff like

OMG !  I have been thinking about my blog for a while. So much is going on in my life that is negative that I did not feel like doing anything.    I did not write blogs,  I did not read any blogs.  I did watch a lot of videos about art journaling and all thing crafty or creative.  While I did enjoy that I feel that I have missed the opportunity to express my self in written form. I like to write however I hate writing.  What I have in my head is often jumbled  so much that my attempt to write them down end up in a lot of missing words, unclear thoughts and even when I went back to read them I could not tell what I was feeling and why. Typing is easier.  However I like writing and hopefully with time and planning I will be regularly writing my blog again. I need to express my self as I would to my best friend which is my mother.  So some blog will be in letter format to my mom. I need to rant and scream.  Someone recently told me that I was  like the mothers on 50"s tv.